Integration

Something really powerful just happened.

Like so many of us, I have struggled mightily with shame, self loathing, and a sense of brokenness. 

We all have different “parts” or facets of our personality that try to protect us from encountering those painful emotions in different ways. (The more trauma you’ve experienced, the more disjointed these parts can feel.)

So I do a lot of inner work on exploring, nurturing, and reconciling the distinct facets of myself. 

During those meditations, I experience very powerful visuals and guidance on how to relate to these facets, and myself overall, more kindly.

And something huge clicked this past weekend.

During a couple of different meditations, the same insight kept coming through:

“You don’t have to put love on hold anymore. Let it be easy. You don’t have to be scared anymore.”

The flood of relief that followed was indescribable. My nervous system really, truly relaxed for the first time I can remember.

That wisdom allowed me to open up and fully receive the incredible love and connection already around me – love and connection that I’d been holding at arm’s length, out of fear of getting hurt the way I had so many times before.

Deeper than that, though, it felt like a homecoming to myself.

All the fragmented facets of myself came together and integrated into a profound sense of oneness.

All of this caught me totally by surprise.

Sure, I spend tons of time and energy working on healing, but honestly, it had never occurred to me that I could actually feel truly, deeply whole. I assumed that would be forever out of reach because of my background.

I’m here to hold up the vision and the hope for you that it really is possible.

It’s a long process, it’s hard as hell at times, and it’s definitely not a straight line.

But no matter what you’ve been through, a joyful and loving coming home to yourself is attainable.

And there are many helpers available to you along the way. The universe is always conspiring toward your healing, if you’ll allow it.

All you have to do is ask, trust, and keep showing up for the work.